Another year has pass.. 2005 has been a very happening year for me.. a year full of joy,happiness & sadness which deeply hurt my heart,which leave me a very deep impression & impact to my heart.. I still remember clearly how i know my Dear my Most Love from e first day til e day he hurt me deeply...

14th FEBRUARY 2004 Valentine's Day

its e first day i know XM through Vincent at Devilsbar when Vincent catch hold of my hand while i was on my way to the ladies...

31st DECEMBER 2005 New Year Eve

the most memorable day in my life... its e day i & XM get to know each other more at devils... ha.. ha.. i was very high on tt nite & next day morning i need 2 work at 5am.. XM offer to send me to work & he did wat he say.. we have a very enjoyable nite companying each other..

JANUARY 2005

XM started msging me & we talk & chat & getting to know each other deeper & our relation become stronger.. we meet up for dinner & coffee session w his friend whom i know & of course most of the time we r alone.. He really melted my heart w his sincerity & care.. there was once he bought a btl of cough syrup & secertly bring it to me at my house without informing me.. only when he reach then he call & give me a surprise, i'm really very very touch... chinese new year is coming & he is doing duty at chinatown & it given us more time to b 2gether..

FEBRUARY 2005

XM Bday is on e 10th Feb & its e first time i celebrating his Bday w him & its e happiest moment in our lives.. really very happy tt he njoy himself during his Bday n i bought 4 him a Montblance wallet for Bday.. its chinese new year at e same time n he bring me to his friend's home.. altought i didnt know most of his friend there,he has never leave me alone,he company me all e while by my side so sweet of him to thought of it.. Valentine's day is our 1 year Anniversay of knowing each other & is our 1st Valentine too & i bought for him a Montblance keychain for Valentine's day.. he was on course on tt day but was given more than 1hr lunch break & so he company me for lunch & we chat til he need to go back to course.. when i reach home some1 came knocking on e door & to my surprise its a delievery man w a small basket of red roses & a btl of perfume in it, attached a card written Darrence Love Jasmine... i was very very happy cause i didnt thought of him giving me any Valentine's present.. he always give me surprise tt makes me very very happy & very very memorable..

MARCH 2005

he book a chalet at East Coast for us to spend our time 2gether alone for 3 days 2 nites.. i feel so pampered my him & i love him even more & i know i cant let go of him anymore..

APRIL 2005

we been spending alot of time w each other. no matter how tired we r we wil make out time to meet cause we only meet 3 to 4 times each week.. e more i didnt meet him the more i miss him.. he has book a chalet at loyang for both of us & this is our 2nd time spending our time alone..

MAY 2005

he bring me to his team chalet & i am very very glad tt he always bring me to where ever he go & intro his friends 2 me... whenever we r 2gether i just wan him to be happy & njoy himself.. 2 weeks after his team member chalet is my Bday & he booked for me a chalet to celebrate my Bday.. 1st day we spend our nite alone so lovey dovey.. we went swimming in e afternoon & 2gether we cook food in e kitchen for our dinner & have a fun nite companying each other.. its e most happiest Bday i have spend w my most love XM.. This chalet is a present from him..

JUNE 2005

XM was busy & we only meet twice a week some time.. i understand he has to work so i have to b good..

JULY 2006

XM book a chalet at Costa Sand Pasir Ris for us to spend our time 2gether alone again.. june he was busy & we seldom meet up & so thoughtful of him to have arrange our time alone.. this is e 3rd time he has book chalet for usto spend our time alone.. e more he is so caring e more i love him deeply e more i cant give up my love 4 him no matter wat happen..

August 2007

Again XM was busy w work & we meet up less for e whole month...

SEPTEMBER 2005

XM know we have not been spending time 2gether alone for some time & this is the 4th time he book a chalet.. he book it at East Coast due to no avaliability at Loyang.. he really adores me alot cause wat ever i loves to eat he will definately bring me there.. i have given all my heart to him,i cant take it back at all..

OCTOBER 2005

this is e most painful & saddest day in my life.. 17th Oct he told me we will b friend instead due to certain unforseen reason.. this reason has been in our realtion since feb but we didnt give up our relation cause we know we loves each other deeply... he promise me he will never give up & will never leave me but he was e first to give up everything.. he break my heart deeply.. i never blame him i never hate him but im just angry w him for not knowing how to think for himself.. for a stupid reason he let go our relation & our happiness.. he dun know how to think of his own happiness & those happy time we have spend he dun now how to think of himself... my hearts hurts deeply my tears cant stop rolling cant stop no matter how hard i try..

NOVEMBER 2005

17th november e last time we meet s a couple.. we went JB for lunch & went foot message.. we went back singapore in e evening & go for a movie.. we watch THE MYTH & after tt we went to take a photo 2gether.. its a photo he promise me to take & keep s a love memories of ours..its actually a neo print.. its late & we went back e market near my house for a drink b4 going home... he spend e last nite s a couple w me s promise & spend e nite at my house cause e next morning he wil b going to his team holiday at Bangkok... he promise me he wil call me& weil still meet up i just pray he wil keep his words.. i just wish he will come back to me again & we can spend our life s couple happily forever.. i will wait for him,wait til he knows how to think for himself again.. PLS XM my Most Love PLS think of ur happiness n not ur use to it PLS PLS MY DEAR.. U forever will b my dear whom i love most...

DECEMBER 2005

since october till now my tears has never stop rolling.. i just cant control myself.. whenever i think of all e effort both of us has put in my tears just cant stop rolling.. XM has been avoiding me since then, didnt dare to call me or reply my msg.. my hearts really painful, very very painful..